Well I once met this guy who made me feel what love is like. He made me feel like I am worth it to be loved. He made me the happiest girl in the universe, he was the reason why the smile never fade away on my face. He made me feel special, he made me feel valued. He made me feel everything.
But notice I am using the word “was” and “made” rather than “is” and “make”? Because that was before — that was before we became strangers.
Strangers with memories, rather.
If you would ask me if ever broke up. The answer would be no. We never broke up, why? Because how would you break a string that is never been attached? Yes, we never get the chance to be together.
I have a lot of what ifs inside my head.
“What if we tried?”
“What if we committed?”
“What if I was brave enough?”
What if those what ifs were done, could the ending be still the same?
Would there be us at the end?
I always wonder why out of all people, those who you cherished and loved the most will mostly be departed from your life, as if like they were only a lesson and an experience to shape you for who you are now, as if like they were only a page in your book.
I was ready to give my all and drop everything for that man, and maybe God knew so he removed him from my path.
We all have to learn that not everyone stays, not everyone was meant for you to stay, even when you feel like they were the one.
We all need to learn that they are just a lesson for us. They’ll come in to our life and will eventually go, will leave us in pain, and all you have to do is to accept it and look for the beauty in it.
Almost but never may be an ineffable kind of pain, however it is supposed to happen in order to improve ourself.
